oh and i saw alex and ben today and it made me way happy!!!!

what a beautiful day it is outside.... i just finished working on the paper, and all three of my pages are all layed out. so i'm done, i kinda want to go see melissa on the way home. mrs. billman's pregnant and that's cute. hmmm what else, well i just had a milkshake and i'm the most relaxed i've been in a while. hmm had an xc meet yesterday and we're still undefeated. also i only have a B in algebra when it was a "D" the other day so it's all ok. hmmmm has anyone ever lied to you and then they do somethign to you and deny it and you don't know if you can believe them or not, well yea it's bothering me a lot... my family is good for once, no fighting and drama and such.school's alright too i guess, and so is running and newspaper, just really busy. but then again i have this theory that ppl are only as busy as we make ourselves... if that makes any sense. k well i'm gonna leave sschool now and i wanna go home. *muah* bernadette

it's been a while hasn't it?

Hello!
I'm so happy to be wrting in my blog! Sorry to anyone who reads this that I seldom update it but with my life right now that ought to be understandable... Let's see I've now been up for 15 hours straight, and in those 15 hours I have
1. almost been arrested for a hit and run
2. set the course record for the 5 stage relays
3. Driven from Raleigh to Greensboro and back
4. Walked in a pumpkin field w/ my family
5. gone to waffle house with the coolest people I know, aka Melissa, Jenny Logan, Amanda Sampson, and Emily Adams... wow waffle house is sooo ghetto sometimes. heh heh


Anyway I've just been insanely busy since school started I'm news editor of my school paper, so that holds sooo many responsiblities, and then I'm in 3 honors classes plus running sooo much milage ( like 50 miles this week), and being team captian which yeah i got soo angry today at everyone for not listening to me when I was just trying to do like Nick said and get everyone cooled down and ppl would not stop bitching at me or just not listending at all. i guess that's wahat happends when you have so many girls on one team, it's annoying though, and i yelled at people a lot to the point where some people probobly think I'm a total bitch but whatever. I was mad at my time in the race today... I ran 9:37, which was faster than last year, but way slower than Heather's 8:31 and I was not that far away from Heather in Hendersonville, so I shouldn't be that far behind her now. I think it was just hard running all alone with no one to push me and running a shorter distance than usual... I should have gone harder bottom line. Oh but Nick from UNC aka used to go to Weslyan you made my day! Thanks so much for cheering for me and such.
Hmm and then there was my accident, so I was trying to parralell park in downtown raleigh and I bump into the bumper of this HUGE truck in front of me and leave a little red paint from my car on teh bumper, my car on the other hand has a huge dent in the hood and the hood can't open, to make a long story short I freaked out and started crying the owner wasn't there I went and got my mom trying to figure out what to do and she says don't worry about it there's not damage that will come off with soap and water... well I go home and about 20 minutes later a cop shows up at my door and was merciful and didn't arrest me , but he made it clear that I was lucky I got him as a cop and not some jerk b/c basically I could have been charged witha hit and run which would have been beyond belief horrible. But I kind of haave to ask why didn't my mom tell me to leave a note w/ my info on itthis has never happened to me before was I just supposed to know to do that??! oh and this lady reported me to teh poilce! yeah taht's right I was reported... stupid bitch. heh heh anyway that was crazy. as is life right now
also not to sound insanely lame but it's kind of stressing me out that i don't have a bf..... I just want someone to settle down w/ I"m sick of just doing stuff w/ ppl and it not meaning anything. So, I dunno just thought I'd say that to get it out and not have to think about it. There's much much much more I could say but I don't have the time to sit here typing so I won't. I love all of you! -Bernadette-