whew

wow, i have to say that in the past month, i have been through more shit than ever before in my life, and i don't say that in a feel bad for me kinda way, i mean it's simply it's the truth. To summarize, i had the worst track season of my life, when it was the most important year for running, yeah we had states last weekend, which was a total bust for me, although we did win it as a team.... i still scored some points rather pathetically. i really have nothing to blame it on, i think at that point i was just so physically and mentally exhausted from everything, i just didn't have anything left, which is bad i know, but it's all over now.
so first off is track, secondly is everything with mary evelyn. right now she's home and just slowly gaining weight and getting ready to have surgery. my parents have a meeting with the cardiologist on June 14th and that's when we find out when the surgery will be. it's probobly going to be towards the end of the summer. But, until then we don't know what our summer holds. we don't know if we'll be able to travel or anything. we were supposed to go to NY but everything in life has been put on hold. so far for this summer, these are the plans: 1. XC camp w/ my girls!! 2. Journalsim camp at UNC, don't hate it's really cool. 3. Jason's lake house w/ Mel... most def happening soon 4. Topsail island- CFL reunion Kathryn? 5. trips to d-town to see all those ppl. That's all the plans for now, we'll see what else develops
Next up is drama with boy (s) and friends, i guess i probobly would be safe writing about it on here sine NO ONE reads this shit, but i'm not into putting everything out there for everyone to read... so yeah sorry just know there was drama.
Then there are grades, holy shit, i have a D in Mrs. Brown's class... wow, that's pathetic i know, i'm praying it goes up with ALL the extra credit i have,and i'm thinking it will, but my grades are suffering.

OK so that's my life, but things are starting to settle, Finally and I have to say througout all of this there's one thing that has kept me sane, love from the people I care about most.... My family and my friends are what keeps me alive, when I am at the END of my line, and I would not have survived this past month without them, everyone who's been there fore me I have to just say THANK YOU right now, for everything, your sacrifices, your listening to me complain, your kindness, i love you all so much.
I'm gonna go but I can't wait til summer, it's fast approaching, only exams and SAT's left until freedom. wish me luck. LOVE, BERNADETTE